{"id":4,"date":"2013-04-21T01:12:21","date_gmt":"2013-04-21T01:12:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/?p=4"},"modified":"2013-04-21T01:21:07","modified_gmt":"2013-04-21T01:21:07","slug":"gaz-lambasi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/2013\/04\/21\/gaz-lambasi\/","title":{"rendered":"Gaz Lambas\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"yagli-boya-gaz-lambasi\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Gaz lambas\u0131<\/p>\n

Ak\u015fam olup da hava kararmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, \u00f6nce gaz\u00a0 lamabas\u0131n\u0131 yak\u0131p, sonra perdeleri kapat\u0131rd\u0131m. Sadece karanl\u0131kta kalmamak i\u00e7in.<\/p>\n

\u0130yi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, okuldan geldikten sonra pencerenin tam \u00f6n\u00fcndeki sedire y\u00fcz\u00fckoyun uzan\u0131p, \u00f6devlerimi yapmaya ba\u015flard\u0131m. Bir s\u00fcre sonra sat\u0131r \u00e7izgilerini g\u00f6rmekte g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fck \u00e7ekince havan\u0131n iyice kararmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlard\u0131m. Kalkar, duvarda as\u0131l\u0131 gaz lambas\u0131n\u0131 pencerenin i\u00e7i dedi\u011fimiz kap\u0131s\u0131z dolap gibi duran yere koyar, cam\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131rd\u0131m. Sadece lamba cam\u0131 silmekte i\u00e7in kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z eski t\u00fclbenti yerinden al\u0131r, cam\u0131n i\u00e7ini nefesimle buharla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r, daha sonrada iyice pencereye yakla\u015f\u0131p, hi\u00e7 leke kalmay\u0131ncaya kadar silerdim. Sildikten sonra, lamban\u0131n fitilini, muhtar \u00e7akma\u011f\u0131yla rahat\u00e7a yakabilecek kadar d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131p yakard\u0131m. Hemen sonra da, s\u00f6nmeyecek kadar tekrar i\u00e7eri \u00e7ekip cam\u0131 yerine yerle\u015ftirirdim. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kuvvetli fitil \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 tam \u0131s\u0131nmam\u0131\u015f lamba cam\u0131n\u0131 patlat\u0131r, tecr\u00fcbeyle sabittir. Sonra da lambay\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kma dedi\u011fimi odam\u0131z\u0131 en
\niyi ayd\u0131nlatacak duvardaki \u00e7ivisine geri asard\u0131m. Bir m\u00fcddet sonra da, cam \u0131s\u0131nm\u0131\u015f olurdu ve fitili yukar\u0131 alev ve is vermeyecek kadar a\u00e7ard\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fte \u015fimdi perdeler kapanabilir. \u00d6nce sa\u011fdakini sola do\u011fru, sonra soldakini sa\u011fa do\u011fru. Bu i\u015fler yap\u0131l\u0131ncaya kadar zaten hava da tamamen kararm\u0131\u015f olurdu. Ak toprakla boyanm\u0131\u015f odan\u0131n duvarlar\u0131, gaz lambas\u0131n\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131yla birle\u015fince kasvetli bir so\u011fukluk \u00e7\u00f6kerdi evin i\u00e7ine. Belki bu nedenle i\u015fler bittikten sonra, tekrar \u00f6devimin ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde, kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerden ba\u015flamakta \u00e7ok g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fck \u00e7ekerdim. Sanki ge\u00e7en o be\u015f on dakikal\u0131k s\u00fcre de\u011fildi, saatler g\u00fcnler \u00f6ncesi b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerdeymi\u015fim gibi yeniden ba\u015flamakta zorlan\u0131rd\u0131m. Ama \u00e7ocuk akl\u0131 i\u015fte hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedim bunun sebebini. Asl\u0131nda sadece \u00e7ocuk akl\u0131 de\u011fil ondan sonraki y\u0131llar i\u00e7inde de hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme gere\u011fi duymad\u0131m. Her g\u00fcn yap\u0131lan \u00e7ok basit bu i\u015fleri, hat\u0131rlaman\u0131n ne alemi vard\u0131 \u015fimdi?<\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7enlerde yine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken bu perde kapatma olay\u0131na farkl\u0131 \u015fekilde bakt\u0131m. Asl\u0131nda perdeler sadece \u0131\u015f\u0131klar yand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan bak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda i\u00e7erisi g\u00f6r\u00fclmemesi i\u00e7in de\u011fil, ayn\u0131 zamanda bir zaman diliminin sona ermesini de i\u015faret ediyordu. G\u00fcn bitiyor ve gece ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Bazen g\u00fcnler uzun oluyor, bazen geceler. G\u00fcn i\u00e7inde yap\u0131lan \u015feyler sona eriyor, ya\u015fam geceye d\u00f6n\u00fcyor. Velhas\u0131l\u0131 uzun veya k\u0131sa, g\u00fcn bitiyor perdeler kapan\u0131yor.<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan ya\u015fam\u0131 da b\u00f6yle; g\u00f6r\u00fcnen bir perdesi yok gibidir. Ama t\u00fcl, kaput, keten veya ba\u015fka bir kuma\u015ftan, belki stor, belki jaluzi de olsa perdesiz insan ya\u015fam\u0131 yok gibidir. \u0130nsan yeni bir d\u00f6neme ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m dedi\u011finde, asl\u0131nda g\u00fcn do\u011fmu\u015ftur. O g\u00fcn i\u00e7inde ya\u015fanan ya\u015fan\u0131r ve sona geldi\u011finde, t\u0131pk\u0131 geceye gebenin son demlerinde g\u00fcne\u015fin \u00e7ekti\u011fi ac\u0131lar \u00e7ekilir. \u0130\u015fte bu ac\u0131 perdenin kapanma vaktini i\u015faret eder. Bazen hava pusludur, karanl\u0131k \u00e7abuk \u00e7\u00f6ker, bazen, g\u00fcne\u015f dingindir, direndik\u00e7e direnir. Bazen f\u0131rt\u0131na \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131r g\u00fcn bat\u0131m\u0131na do\u011fru, karanl\u0131kla beraber yerle bir eder g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fc. Bazen sa\u011fanak bir ya\u011fmur alt\u0131nda \u0131slanarak ayr\u0131l\u0131r aram\u0131zdan. Ama nas\u0131l olursa olsun, g\u00fcn batar perdeler iner.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcn\u00fcn bitmesi ve perdelerin kapanmas\u0131yla ba\u015flar i\u00e7e d\u00f6n\u00fck ya\u015fam. G\u00fcn i\u00e7indeki her ayr\u0131nt\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr sa\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r ortaya. Koca g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131yla g\u00f6remediklerini g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn k\u00f6r lamban\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda. G\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda mutlu oldu\u011fun baz\u0131 \u015feyler \u00e7\u00f6\u011f\u00fcr gibi batar adama. G\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7ekti\u011fin ac\u0131, kefareti gibidir bu k\u00f6rl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f mesafesi uzundur diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn, asl\u0131nda s\u0131cak yakar g\u00f6zlerini, \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6remezsin. Hayalcilik, \u201c\u00e7\u00f6lde serap g\u00f6rmek\u201dle ni\u00e7in e\u015f tutulur? \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015f, nutkunu tutmu\u015ftur. G\u00fcn en \u00e7ok \u00e7\u00f6lde hissedilir ve bilinir ki, \u00e7\u00f6lde en uzun yol g\u00fcnbat\u0131m\u0131ndan sonra al\u0131n\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bu nedenle g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 aldat\u0131c\u0131d\u0131r. G\u00f6sterir puslu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc, saklar kat\u0131 ger\u00e7e\u011fi. G\u00fcn yayd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na bo\u011fulur. Oysa ay, karanl\u0131\u011fa do\u011far, t\u0131pk\u0131 perdesi \u00e7ekilmi\u015f odadaki gaz lambas\u0131 gibi. Yerk\u00fcreyi de\u011fil, bilinci \u0131\u015f\u0131t\u0131r.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcn\u00fcn kaybolma saatlerinin sar\u0131 h\u00fczn\u00fc neyse, ya\u015fam i\u00e7indeki perdelerin \u00e7ekildi\u011fi an, ya\u015fanan hesapla\u015fma ayn\u0131d\u0131r. Her ikisi de perdelerin kapanmas\u0131yla ba\u015flayan y\u00fczle\u015fmedir. Ve bir s\u00fcre insan hi\u00e7 kimseyi g\u00f6rmek istemez o anlar\u0131nda. Zay\u0131fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn en aymaz anlar\u0131d\u0131r. Ve
\nbazen insan g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6remediklerini perdeler kapand\u0131ktan sonra g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Terse yat\u0131r\u0131r insan\u0131, kolay gibi olanlar zorla\u015f\u0131r, zormu\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fclenler kolayla\u015f\u0131r. Uzakta, \u00e7ok uzakta zannetti\u011fimiz yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdad\u0131r. Yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdaki, millerce uzaktatd\u0131r. Bulu\u015fulmas\u0131 imkans\u0131z\u0131 avu\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131zda hissederiz, kaybedilmesi olanaks\u0131za dokunmak m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmaz.
\nDemlenmek ister…<\/p>\n

Burada devreye girer, \u201cg\u00fcn do\u011fmadan neler do\u011far\u201d sabr\u0131. E\u011fer ge\u00e7mi\u015f g\u00fcn i\u00e7inde ya\u015fananlar, samimiyse, payla\u015ft\u0131rabilmi\u015fse insana dair duygular\u0131, perdeyi kapatt\u0131ktan sonra bak istedi\u011fin kadar barda\u011f\u0131n bo\u015f taraf\u0131na. \u0130stedi\u011fin kadar kapris yap, istedi\u011fin kadar hiddetlen, istedi\u011fin kadar ac\u0131 \u00e7ek, perdeler kapand\u0131ktan sonra ta\u015flar yerine oturacakt\u0131r. \u00d6nemli olan t\u00fcm bunlar\u0131 yeni g\u00fcn do\u011fmadan yapabilmektir.<\/p>\n

Do\u011facak yeni g\u00fcn\u00fcn sadece ad\u0131 \u201cyeni\u201ddir. D\u00fcnden kalan t\u00fcm izleri ta\u015f\u0131maya devam edecektir. Ummad\u0131\u011f\u0131n kadar dikilecektir kar\u015f\u0131na, d\u00fcn\u00fc
\ny\u0131k\u0131p att\u0131ysan. Beklemedi\u011fi anda d\u00fcnle ilgili ba\u015fka ger\u00e7eklerle y\u00fczle\u015fir insan. G\u00f6rmedi\u011fi yaralarla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131r, kan akm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r oluk oluk, su diye i\u00e7mi\u015fsindir kana kana. D\u0131\u015ftaki yara \u00e7abuk ge\u00e7er, merhem yeter. \u0130\u00e7teki yaray\u0131 ise g\u00f6rmek zordur, g\u00f6r\u00fcnce de a\u011fu\u015flanmak ister. Veya g\u00fcne\u015f do\u011fsa bile, yeni g\u00fcn bir daha do\u011fmayabilir.<\/p>\n

Uzun mu k\u0131sa m\u0131, bilmiyorum, k\u0131\u015f m\u0131 yaz m\u0131 bilmiyorum, ya\u011fmur mu poyraz m\u0131 bilmiyorum, perdeleri kapat\u0131r\u0131z ister istemez? D\u00f6nem \u201ck\u0131\u015f\u201dsa
\ntek iyi taraf\u0131, geceler uzun ve g\u00fcn ge\u00e7 do\u011facak. Ya\u011fmurun seli, r\u00fczgar\u0131n \u015fiddeti y\u0131kar d\u00f6ker biraz, ama arkas\u0131ndan toparlan\u0131r yine her \u015fey. Viraj da aman aman bir viraj de\u011filse, topland\u0131 m\u0131 direksiyon, gidecek o kadar \u00e7ok yol vard\u0131r ki?<\/p>\n

Bug\u00fcn art\u0131k, g\u00fcn batmadan lambay\u0131 yakmay\u0131 bilerek yak\u0131yorum. Yine karanl\u0131kta kalmamak i\u00e7in. Gece ilerleyip de lamba fitili yand\u0131k\u00e7a, \u00e7\u0131karmak
\ngerek, ayd\u0131nl\u0131k i\u00e7in. Ve gaz\u0131 lambay\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeden hazneye koymak marifettir.<\/p>\n

Geceyi ayd\u0131nlatmak i\u00e7in gaz lambas\u0131 bile yeter, ki bunun ay\u0131 var, \u015fafa\u011fa g\u00fcne\u015fi var…<\/p>\n

Yazan : bebbuk ku\u015fu<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Gaz lambas\u0131 Ak\u015fam olup da hava kararmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, \u00f6nce gaz\u00a0 lamabas\u0131n\u0131 yak\u0131p, sonra perdeleri kapat\u0131rd\u0131m. Sadece karanl\u0131kta kalmamak i\u00e7in. \u0130yi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, okuldan geldikten sonra pencerenin tam \u00f6n\u00fcndeki sedire y\u00fcz\u00fckoyun uzan\u0131p, \u00f6devlerimi yapmaya ba\u015flard\u0131m. Bir...<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"spay_email":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false,"jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p3vlXD-4","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11,"href":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4\/revisions\/11"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/gurgeli.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}